There was a lot more to say, yet she decided 2 listen dis tym.This will be the first n probably not the last……….Her eyes revealed no anxiety,no pain ,not a tinge of disatisfaction.With a serene mind and a clear head ,stayed as if she was modelling 4 a painter of renaissance era.”I will not close my eyes, until I see him”, determined in mind, started looking for him.
“Didn’t I tell u that der is no use in clinging 2 this seat? They won’t, never appreciate ur potentials, and end up taking u for granted. Fill up a new resume, dear gal”. This rings within d eardrum infinitely, Eliz thought.”Now that, I lost all my interest in working in dat atmosphere, I’ll take Nat’s words up”.”Come on, leave it gal, right now. All u need is Ur complete presence.U don’t want 2 tell him abt stuffs dat would have happened in Ur life, if u had taken life more seriously! As read long before, lyf has no pause n rewind buttons……….. ”, the guide made her memorise, stressing d word, concentration to d recently played word-list.
When did I first come over dis word? The thought process deviated n she felt dense air of the most savoring phase of hers. The dreamy day hours, invoking of d prodigy widin self, naughtiness n d subsequent scoldings, she can’t help smiling. “if someone had made a tymmachine by this age???”Not again, Jimmy come back”, hushed the guide who took up d role of owner.”Hello guide, don be so dominating, ok? U know, dis is the sole reason why I broke up with Ken.I,definitely, need space in any relationship.I know what’s in ur mind:”Eliz can’t move on without her guide”.Yup,maybe.That doesn’t give u any godly power over me, mind my words.”, she voiced.”Enough is enuf,come back Eliz”,guide warned.
I’m sitting somewhere without ma day –long campanion.Losing d track of tym,cutting myself out of the world, may be that will be d latest update of mine if I had my cell wid me. When I was a child, my world was quite a bigger one. It’s suffocating me ,as world gets connected in ma finger tips. Where is d guide nw? Left me? An hour might have passed,Y am I sitting here wid my eyes wide open? To feel him? To see him?
Eliz closed her eyes, took out something she hasn’t touched for an year den. Muttering d words n passing each bead, she pleaded:”come 2 me”. Without being caught up by her thoughts or the face of d boy sitting near to her, she felt herself immersed. No goose bumps on hand, still she shivered. She felt her lips moving, “that was nearly an year before, I came to u,to pay respects to the departed. I remember, u asked me wthr I’ll marry u and I said no. I love you n wanted 2 be urs forever, let’s not name this relation.Coz,u can be anyone 2 me whom ppl can be n can’t be. In this life I can’t afford, putting ur name n tagging it wid something.”She closed her lips,n felt the communion. Each time she inhaled, she knew dat he was der, so close 2 her dat she can’t tell how near,n din bother 2.”Am I becoming a river of exhilaration, an undried source of energy? Am I flying? Is this d lightness of Angels?”Questions flashed, she din ponder. She left herself in dat state for another eon.
Bells rang for d prayer.”I’ll carry him”, not bading she finalized.”It’s 7pm.It took a lot 2 make me realize dat feeling is really believing.”
